Me. hahahaha. Yes i'm referring to me, myself.
BUT FIRST, HELLO EVERYONE!!!!!!! I'm finally back to blogging.
Went away from this space because of exams and I even controlled myself during the exam period ;)
Ok, u can say i'm quite proud of myself for resisting the computer!
This exam period is really horrible vegetable... Because idky I had higher expectations for myself compared to last year.
Plus the fact that I took FIVE modules and realizing last min the date of ME is pushed forward...
And anyway its just so horrible and stressful I cried like mad. LIKE MAD, i mean it.
But ok anyway thank you mummy daddy first. Hahaha. Making drinks for me to feel fresher, not accusing me of staying out late and not having dinner with them..
Friends for giving me all the good luck I needed alot alot alot.
Esp one day before my sociology. I really needed that luck.
And of course........... Mr ah bui. hahahahahaha.
(That explains the title of this post anyway)
Horrible exam period made me realise, when i'm at the lowest point of my life (I seriously thought I was going to die because I was so so so scared I couldn't cramp any damn theory into my brain) KNN PLEASE. I read the notes like THRICE. And tried really hard to understand all the fucking theories but they just couldn't get into my pea brain. Thinking back makes me want to cry again because the feeling is so !@#$%
Oh anyway. My point is, when I was really really breaking down, thank goodness for you.
Accompanying me through the night while I studied even though u were planning to sleep already... So i knew someone was there with me... So I knew I am not alone... (AND ALSO SHIFU.. who was stress tgth w me!!!) Then guess who appeared at my door step in the morning of the socio paper? :) I was so so so happy and touched and of course, still feeling scared for the paper, I cry like mad again. So ah bui took the mrt with me and alighted at Dover and I can't help but start sobbing again. Seriously I JUST KEPT CRYING. So embarassing.
So after the (fucked up) socio paper I was so so so so so drained. I was so upset because I had a marketing paper the next day (YA THEORY AGAIN). Plus honestly, looking at denise study pyp made me felt so much worse... Cos I only had time to read thru the notes again... Thanks to my pea brain again. So before I went home, I sobbed terribly again. Thankfully this time in the arms of ah bui. And his consolation made me feel so much better... I felt like I got hope. I still have hope...! Poor thing him, had to console me when he had a paper the next day morning too. I didn't make him sleep with me that night! I'm not that selfish. Lol. But at that time I already felt okay!
Came friday........ Hate. Everybody around me was doing msm (sucha lovable subject) and I had to study ME... (Fuck my timetable, all cramped tgth) Everybody was discussing....... But I couldn't listen... Le sigh. Hate. Saturday. POA........ I seriously cannot have any patience with this module. Really sorry for not controlling my temper. I couldn't take it cos I --------------------. Don't want to talk about it. Anyway I keep running to the toilet to tear wtf ikr. But this time no ah bui. Cos he was annoyed with me for throwing a tantrum. So upset lol wtv. I went home and brainwashed myself. I cannot hate poa. I cannot spend useless time crying and throwing tantrums. So sunday was good. Plus I finally can hear them discuss msm. All the time I was practicing msm alone at home before I head to bed. No choice, I couldn't spare time out for it in the afternoon. Went for both papers the next day, and damnnnnnnnn I nearly felt asleep when i was doing the p&l bs wtf. And I had ah bui's jacket with me, my drug lolol ;) Ok then at night I totally had no mood to study anymore. Felt stressed for a period of time idky but ah bui was there with me till I slept! Next morning I just read thru and fuck it. The paper was fucked up. BUT WHO CARES. EXAMS ARE OVER. WOOHOO!!!
Ok la so my point is, this (fucked up and stressful) period of time made me realize I need my boyfriend. Sometimes there are really things your best friend can't do for you. When you really want to cry and sob, le boyfriend's shoulder is the most comfy. (I am sorrrryyyyyyyy but the closest person who is taller than me other than my dad is my boyfriend lol) I used to think nobody will love me T_T even when we got tgth, I used to think i am the only one who will miss him lol (ok i'm just being honest). But well, now i know, someone is there for me when I am feeling upset. I am a crybaby seriously my tear glands are uncontrollable. And recently this ah bui is so nice to me........ I love it when he controls his temper lol. So yes, mr boyfriend is very impt in my life because of wtv he's done
Hahahahahah I had a purpose when I wanted to take this gif. Thank you ah bui :) MUACKKKKKS
I'm feeling so touched and happy now I am going to end this blog post and cry lolol wtf k no i'm joking.
But goodnight for real! Byebye!
